147: Addicted - Sadie's Comeback Story

In this episode of Rock Bottom with Ryan, Sadie shares her recovery story: clean since November 21, 2019, originally from Georgia and now in North Carolina, with amphetamines as her drug of choice. She describes a chaotic childhood with an addicted father, emotional disconnection at home, bullying that damaged her self-esteem, and lifelong masking through invented identities. After moving to Fayetteville, she began using cocaine at 18 and quickly spiraled into 14 years of addiction, isolation, and destructive behavior. Sadie explains how prescription Adderall became her downfall, escalating to 500–700 mg a day, triggering severe psychosis, hallucinations, and total impairment. She was taken to detox, entered treatment and transitional housing, embraced NA, rebuilt relationships with her children, and now centers her life on meetings, service work, sponsorship, and daily recovery.

 

00:00 Trauma and bravado 00:53 Show intro and sponsor 02:29 Meet Sadie and sobriety 03:27 Family and early childhood 05:55 Dad relationship and forgiveness 09:29 Bullying and self esteem 12:43 Reinvention in high school 18:22 First high and instant hook 21:29 Spiraling and isolation 27:58 Adderall takes over 33:51 Psychosis and hallucinations 35:07 Meth Hallucinations Begin 35:42 Weeks Without Sleep 36:25 Tweaking And Shadow People 39:06 DIY Chaos In Suburbs 40:51 Detox And Lady Gaga Delusion 42:32 Treatment Phases And Sober Housing 43:24 Acceptance And Fellowship 47:07 Rebuilding Life And Family 49:55 Daily NA Routine And Sponsoring 54:43 Service Work And Purpose 57:42 Goals Peace And Parenting 01:02:07 Advice Quotes And Farewell